Better habits foster a healthier lifestyle which will make it easier to maintain my weight loss into the future. This is one of the most important reasons because if I work on my habits now, I’ll be the longterm success that I want to be!
Warning: I may be taking up more then my share of the bed!
This is probably the one time that being obese is a good thing. When I am sitting on a bus – people rarely want to sit beside me. So oftentimes I get to sit on my own for the entire journey, which is a small pleasure! However when someone does sit beside me on a bus, train or plane; or when I have to share a bed with someone – I feel like I am taking up way too much room! I get very self conscious about it and can feel my anxiety rising worrying that I am squashing the other person with all my excess weight! It’s a horrible feeling! When I hear comedians joke about not wanting to be stuck beside the ‘fat person’, all this shame bubbles up inside of me!
I am looking forward to the day when I only take up my seat – and no one elses! (Though I will miss the days of scaring off the other passengers and having a bus seat all to myself!)
Do you find yourself getting self conscious about sharing a seat with someone else?
I know in a previous reason I said for the shopping, but in this reason I mean I want to be able to try different styles of clothes. Types where I said I was ‘too fat’ to get away wearing that. Items like crop tops, bikinis or skinny jeans. It’s amazing how many restrictions you put on yourself when you gain weight. Suddenly all these items of clothing are strictly forbidden to hang in your closet. I look forward to welcoming them all into my wardrobe as time goes by.
Are there any styles of clothes that you have stopped yourself from buying because you are ‘too fat’? Or did it ever stop you?
Okay so no sane person is going to try and pick me up when I am this weight! I could literally break their back! But when I was a lesser weight I would scream if someone would try to pick me up. “Noooooooo don’t!!!” I would squeal for numerous reasons.
1) I was afraid that they would try to lift me and fail making it even more obvious how overweight I was.
2) That they would injure themselves, making me feel really guilty.
3) That they would drop me and I would be injured.
4) I felt I would be publicly ridiculed – look at the guy trying to life the fat girl!
So yeah I would like to be smaller so those thoughts don’t rush into my mind the second I see someone going to lift me!
So do you mind if people try to lift you into the air? Or do you protest like me?
The highest weight I have even been is 295.5 lbs or 21 stone 1.5 lbs. That is a ridiculous weight and obscenely unhealthy! I never want to go back to that place. I want that to be a dim memory in the future!
I know that I have said before I would like to walk at a normal pace but I’d also like to walk ‘normally’. I’ve definitely found since I gained weight that I waddle more than I walk. All the extra fat in places means its difficult to walk elegantly down the street. If I ever catch myself in the reflection of a shop window I’m always surprised by how much waddle more than walk. Hopefully as I lose weight, I become more graceful on my feet and that will be reflected in my walk.
Ugh! How many times have I had to delete selfies because I’ve had major double chin – boooooo!! I’ll admit that any selfie I upload I’ve probably taken 7-8 photos before the one I’m happy with. And usually the reason for all these extra shots is because my double chin is too much on show! I’m definitely one of those girls that knows the best angles to take a selfie to avoid the much dreaded double chin! Yes I’m aware how pathetic that sounds!
Am I the only person who does this? Is anyone else brave enough to admit it publicly?
Being in hospital is bad enough without having the added embarrassment of accidentally flashing everyone you meet! I’d like to be able to wear a gown and for it to cover me properly so I’m not walking with my back to the wall at all times for fear someone gets a full view of my rear!!
Do you feel incredibly self conscious when it’s time to wear that surgery gown?
Some people will definitely disagree with this point. But I think it’s true.
People generally view being fat as a bad thing. I do honestly believe that people I have met in the past have judged me solely on my weight. They see me as a large woman and think I’m lazy, lack willpower, have no respect for myself and they view me negatively from that before I’ve said a word.
We are all guilty of snap judgements of people. I would like to not have to start off on the wrong foot with people and have them view me more positively before I speak. I know people will say that if someone has a problem with me being fat, that person isn’t someone I should want to make a good impression on. However society has ingrained such a poor view of obese people, it’s very hard for people not to react negatively to an overweight person. I do think the slimmer you are the better an impression you make. Which is sad, but I think it’s the truth.
What do you all think? Am I crazy to think like this? Or do you agree that people make snap decisions about us because we are overweight?
I love my friends. And they have been such an amazing support in my journey. I am extremely grateful for their unending enthusiasm and encouragement. But sometimes, I’d really like for them to say “you look great!”
This is a silly reason and extremely superficial but it’s a reason for me!
I always try to compliment my friends when we meet up. I say something nice about what they are wearing, how nice their hair looks, if their makeup is really on point. Generally they just say thanks and leave it at that. I’d love on occasion for them to return the compliment and say my clothes are cute or I’m looking great.
Am I fishing for compliments – probably. But it always makes someone’s day when they hear a compliment from a friend. When I say something nice to someone and they don’t say anything in return my negative mind whirls into action and I begin to think – I must look awful today.
I know this reason is mostly my own issues and how my mind works – not my friends issue. But if you take something away from this post, let it be that you should offer compliments freely and widely. You’d be surprised how important they could be to someone and be the best part of their day!